"Someone has said very aptly: Resist the beginnings; remedies come too late, when by long delay the evil has gained strength. First, a mere thought comes to mind, then strong imagination, followed by pleasure, evil delight, and consent. Thus, because he is not resisted in the beginning, Satan gains full entry. And the longer a man delays in resisting, so much the weaker does he become each day, while the strength of the enemy grows against him."
Thomas a Kempis, The Imitation of Christ
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
The battle of the mind
So there are days in your life that you just miss people and with Turky Day and the much hated X mass coming up I am missing a bunch of people like.... My family... Mom Dad Bekah.... Baby, Ej and JD... and of course Joey!
There there are the other people that i miss all the "friends of the past" (cough cough my Ex's) and a buch of people a long those lines... I want to see them no doubt, but I know that it would not be good for me like at all to do so, But all will be worked through in time.
I must confess that I know where this battle is rooted, it all goes back to me not being faithfull in my prayer time and reading of the Bib. I have seen over the past... three days that my mind has slowly gone down hill again after so long of not digging into Gods word, that my thought pattern is no longer the same no longer is my mind coverd with the word of God or prayer, it is now filled with thoughts of people places and thing that i dont need to be thinking about.... not saying that they were not there in the first place but now they are no longer just fleeding thoughts there is strength and emo behind them... almost like i am just giving power to those thoughts...
MY PHONE IS DEAD!!!! well not dead dead but it only works for about ten min ish.... if i am lucky so yes my life is now like so quiet i dont have my phone going off at like 1 AM or like any time for that matter... it kinda sucks when you are drivng and you dont have it but it is cool when you are through your day and there are no sudden distractions, and also kills a lot of temptaion that i could have.... so all together right now not such a bad thing..
HOME!!!... I am looking at being back in the vally ish 16-26 of Dec at this point, and I am going to have to play a lot of duck and Doge I know there are some people that i need to talk to but there are others that I know I dont need to be going to see, but I am so happy I will get to see baby and Sis and all my family and hope to see the halls... I dont know why but yes, and I get to go to my home church and not stuck here at college....
OH some punk Got into my car and Jacked my CD player.... not that it was worth like all the much but it just sucks because I am going to have to drive down to WACO this week with like no music..... What am i going to do on a 45 min drive with like no music.....
Love you Guys
JoJo
There there are the other people that i miss all the "friends of the past" (cough cough my Ex's) and a buch of people a long those lines... I want to see them no doubt, but I know that it would not be good for me like at all to do so, But all will be worked through in time.
I must confess that I know where this battle is rooted, it all goes back to me not being faithfull in my prayer time and reading of the Bib. I have seen over the past... three days that my mind has slowly gone down hill again after so long of not digging into Gods word, that my thought pattern is no longer the same no longer is my mind coverd with the word of God or prayer, it is now filled with thoughts of people places and thing that i dont need to be thinking about.... not saying that they were not there in the first place but now they are no longer just fleeding thoughts there is strength and emo behind them... almost like i am just giving power to those thoughts...
MY PHONE IS DEAD!!!! well not dead dead but it only works for about ten min ish.... if i am lucky so yes my life is now like so quiet i dont have my phone going off at like 1 AM or like any time for that matter... it kinda sucks when you are drivng and you dont have it but it is cool when you are through your day and there are no sudden distractions, and also kills a lot of temptaion that i could have.... so all together right now not such a bad thing..
HOME!!!... I am looking at being back in the vally ish 16-26 of Dec at this point, and I am going to have to play a lot of duck and Doge I know there are some people that i need to talk to but there are others that I know I dont need to be going to see, but I am so happy I will get to see baby and Sis and all my family and hope to see the halls... I dont know why but yes, and I get to go to my home church and not stuck here at college....
OH some punk Got into my car and Jacked my CD player.... not that it was worth like all the much but it just sucks because I am going to have to drive down to WACO this week with like no music..... What am i going to do on a 45 min drive with like no music.....
Love you Guys
JoJo
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Pain, Understand, Depression
Life.... it is funny...." If life is like a highway I am like Drunk at the Wheel"... Any way so I am now a black haired little Emo Boy.... Yeah!!
So I was in my Old Testment Class on tuesday and we were doing somthing that required us to move to another seat in the room and so I did... (I dont like change) any way so I was asked by three people if I just got into that class because they have never seen me in class before hahah... I am doing good if I can be in a class for 3/4's of a sesmester and the only person that knows that i am in that class is the proff and the chick that sits in front of me.....
It is thurs night that means there are tons of little kids running around here beacuse it is campus days and all of the prospective students are comming to get a taste of SAGU. hahah they are playing into there communist game.....
Things are getting harder I am now at a point where my attractions are "Correct" but I still struggle with my old one so now i am in a postion where i dont want to be...
I bought Tickets to go and see this concert that I wanted to see so so so bad but the person that I wanted to go with that would help me stay accountable there cancled on me so now the concert starts in like a half hour and I am not there..... I am Ticked hard core Boys Suck!!!!
I am ready for a break I am ready to sleep my day away and Just not wake up for like 12 hours...
So I was in my Old Testment Class on tuesday and we were doing somthing that required us to move to another seat in the room and so I did... (I dont like change) any way so I was asked by three people if I just got into that class because they have never seen me in class before hahah... I am doing good if I can be in a class for 3/4's of a sesmester and the only person that knows that i am in that class is the proff and the chick that sits in front of me.....
It is thurs night that means there are tons of little kids running around here beacuse it is campus days and all of the prospective students are comming to get a taste of SAGU. hahah they are playing into there communist game.....
Things are getting harder I am now at a point where my attractions are "Correct" but I still struggle with my old one so now i am in a postion where i dont want to be...
I bought Tickets to go and see this concert that I wanted to see so so so bad but the person that I wanted to go with that would help me stay accountable there cancled on me so now the concert starts in like a half hour and I am not there..... I am Ticked hard core Boys Suck!!!!
I am ready for a break I am ready to sleep my day away and Just not wake up for like 12 hours...
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Working growing Watching
So Today I was fronted by a friend of mine who is going to do some work at a church this weekend. He needed somone to go with him and help him "work the alter"(aka when he gives a alter call I will be one of those guys running around the front praying for people) It is at a church that he is planing on working with next semester, and he asked me to go with.
I made sure that he was cool with chosing me (him knowing about my summer) and he said he was cool because he had thought and prayed about it and I was on his list to ask any way.... I was not at the top of the list, but at least i made the list.... but yes I would hate to get all pumped up but I am excited that God is opening doors for me to do these type of things and God is using me still even thoe I have been having a rough time....
So yes I am excited to see what god does and I am ready to be used by him in what ever way he feels best...
Shoutout- If you are going through a trial dont think that God cant use you because of the trial, steping up and doing work that God has for you is one of the best things you can do!
God can use every one as long as there willing!!
In love in Chirst
Jojo
I made sure that he was cool with chosing me (him knowing about my summer) and he said he was cool because he had thought and prayed about it and I was on his list to ask any way.... I was not at the top of the list, but at least i made the list.... but yes I would hate to get all pumped up but I am excited that God is opening doors for me to do these type of things and God is using me still even thoe I have been having a rough time....
So yes I am excited to see what god does and I am ready to be used by him in what ever way he feels best...
Shoutout- If you are going through a trial dont think that God cant use you because of the trial, steping up and doing work that God has for you is one of the best things you can do!
God can use every one as long as there willing!!
In love in Chirst
Jojo
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